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My 1st post apocalyptic read!

Post apocalyptic isn’t my go-to genre.  But I ventured out and read The Scattered and the Dead (Book 0.5), by Tim McBain & L.T. Vargus.

I liked it…a lot – and there was only 1 character (and an unseen supporting character) for the first half of the book! I felt sympathy for the hero, was curious about the setting, and the pacing built the suspense perfectly for me.

Here are my favorite quotes!

My brain short circuits or something, and I forget how to walk and talk and behave and think. I get stuck thinking about myself and thinking about thinking about myself and so on for a seemingly infinite number of layers of self consciousness.

 

Everyone I’d ever known and everyone they’d ever known and so on throughout all of human history had gazed upon these same stars. Something about that seemed strange. Everyone dies, and the stars never even blink.

 

In some ways it reminded me of how I felt all of the time before, frightened to be around people, awkward and anxious and apart. I don’t want to feel that way anymore. But I’ve seen how things can change, how they must change, how all things must come to ash, how the old ways can die out and become something new. And I know I can change. I can transform. And so I will.

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Passion vs. stability?

Think of a society that is genetically-engineered, where drugs are used to erase any kind of human discomfort, sports are the major distraction and every person is conditioned from an early age to accept it all without question. It might sound familiar, but this story, Brave New World, was written by Aldous Huxley in 1931!

Huxley creates a futuristic world where the purpose behind every aspect of society is stability, by keeping each person content in their role.

“that is the secret of happiness and virtue – liking what you’ve got to do. All the conditioning aims at that: making people like their unescapable social destiny.”

One concept is this society’s promotion of promiscuity over monogamy (Looking back, I can’t believe this was required reading at my high school!).  This excerpt describes the high pressure of monogamy vs. promiscuity as many slow trickles –

“Think of water under pressure in a pipe.”  They thought of it.  “I pierce it once,” said the Controller.  “What a jet!”

He pierced it twenty times. There were twenty piddling little fountains.

Mother, monogamy, romance. High spurts the fountain; fierce and foamy the wild jet. The urge has but a single outlet.

A drug called soma is used by everyone, at any time, for the smallest mental discomfort. Here Huxley explains how drugs are used to cover any gap in activity to keep people content –

“Work, play – at sixty our powers and tastes are what they were at seventeen. Old men in the bad old days used to renounce, retire, take to religion, spend their time reading, thinking – thinking!”

One of the sources of societal instability in this world is art. Therefore, it must be eliminated. Here, the Savage, an illegitimate child raised in the natural world, argues this point with Mustapha Mond, Resident World Controller of Western Europe –

“Because our world is not the same as Othello’s world. You can’t make flivvers without steel – and you can’t make tragedies without social instability.”

The Savage was silent for a little. “All the same,” he insisted obstinately, “Othello’s good, Othello’s better than those feelies.”

“Of course it is,” the Controller agreed. “But that’s the price we have to pay for stability. You’ve got to choose between happiness and what people used to call high art.”

The God they worship is Ford, in the image of Henry Ford – the creator of the Model T and mass production.

“Our Ford himself did a great deal to shift the emphasis from truth and beauty to comfort and happiness. Mass production demanded the shift. Universal happiness keeps the wheels steadily turning; truth and beauty can’t.”

In this excerpt, we have Mond, arguing with the Savage, further defending this brave new world

“We prefer to do things comfortably.”

“But I don’t want comfort. I want God, I want poetry, I want real danger, I want freedom, I want goodness, I want sin.”

“In fact,” said Mustafa Mond, “you’re claiming the right to be unhappy.”

“All right then,” said the Savage defiantly, “I’m claiming the right to be unhappy.”

It makes the reader question the price of passion, choice and human suffering vs. contentment and stability. Anxiety can bring a great deal of suffering, making you wonder – would living in a world like this be worth it?

“Happiness is a hard master – particularly other people’s happiness. A much harder master, if one isn’t conditioned to accept it unquestioningly, than truth.”